Sharada Prasad

It all started because I wanted her to come to the our office annual event which is happening today.

I am participating in a skit. It would have been a great evening if she could have made it.

She told me everything about the skit she enacted in her office. Now I want to tell her about my skit…

But she is not here.

I think when we meet each other after years, we would have loadz to talk about and I am sure that talking to this girl after years would not have altered her in anyway – same old kid – chirpy, innocent, warm, affectionate and what not – all in all she would still be the same old amazing homo sapien

There would not be any change apparently just because we start believing so. Change cannot be brought just by believing

No one can pursuade another to change. Each of us guard a gate of change that can only be opened from the inside. We cannot open the gate of another either by argument or by emotional appeal.

- Marilyn Ferguson

Everyday I wake up and check my cell for missed calls and messages from her.

I go to office and check all my mailboxes every hour with a hope that she would mail me.

I logon to messenger with the hope that I may have some offliners from her.

I spend whole day in the anticipation, in that hope of hearing something from her… if she ever decides to end her ‘break’

The day ends in the usual manner- without any news from the lady.

I go to bed and close my eyes thinking that there is another day – full of hope – infront of me. Two weeks have gone in this manner – she may take years.

Always start ur day with a hope – hope that things are gonna be fine – hope that people are gonna change for better – hope that someday relationships and values will be appreciated… because I believe that there are few things which money cannot buy and there are few people whom time cannot change

I was going through my recent blogs and I observed that most of them have a question involved. Y is this happening? Is it that I never had these questions before? Y did they crop all of a sudden – r they some kinda hidden Qs that come up when U seriously look back and think?

Or is it that they were there but I just used to ignore them?

Again questions about questions – U meet dead end and u start wondering – U hv only questions and there is no one to help U with answers, u need to find them urself – everything lies within.

Life will give test first – lessons next – but Y???????????????

All of a sudden I thought of an SMS sent by my friend Veena – “Friendship is like wet cement. The longer u stay, harder it is to get out. But in any case, U will leave the footprints”

So true – now all I have is a ‘foot print’

Good day Sharad

I am feeling miserable.

If I try to look at all the things that are currently happening in my life – I ask myself – Is this a dream? and I get an answer from deep within – ‘Has to be’ – it is some kinda bad dream indeed.

One fine day I wake up, the dream will cease to exist and life will be as beautiful as it was before – Rays of hope will penetrate through the eternal darkness to bring light again into my life.

I always think about this, when my friends ask me forget her and move on in life, do I really need to repent? Frankly speaking – NO – not at all – I may miss her now. She may not want to be a part of my life – but when she was – she gave her 100%

I don’t regret that I wasted an year in her thoughts – just thinking about her – dreaming her dreams – thinking her thoughts – feeling her feelings – I spent almost an year to say that I really understand her – to say that I really know her. But all of a sudden that person vanishes – the garden turns into a desert and U r lost – U don’t even know Y the angel U believed in abandoned U leaving U clueless

Love someone who loves U in return – may be very true – when loving someone can be so beautiful – how beautiful could it be when U are loved in return? How beautiful could it be to recognize each other’s imperfections and still confidently say – yes I know, I can bear this guy – his words, his actions – for I know his thoughts, I am sure that I can grow old with him, look back and say – I could have never led a better life – a life so satisfying that I am not afraid of death anymore!!!!!!!!

People forget what U said
People forget what U did
But
People will never forget what you made them feel